men’s soccer

"Jesus wore towels when it was hot, too."

facecreep

I don’t really care about blogging etiquite. Who is to tell me how to write? Didn’t they do that back when I thought pencil boxes were the coolest thing ever? I’ll just write as it comes out of my mind – sometimes with wrong punctuation or grammar… or not capitalized. If you’re OCD on that stuff…. eat your HeART out.

Most of the reason I am writing is because I was on facebook. I looked down to the right corner where the chat thing is, and saw the number 70. not the notifications, but my “friends” who were online. Granted, I’m pretty pouplar and I have many leather bound books, but that number surprised me. Thought it was unnaturally high. From there I clicked to expand it and see who was on. I’m avoiding work, obviously (since the next 4 days are going to be INSANE) so I felt like talking. Scanned the entire list and realized I didn’t want to talk to any of those people. None out of 70. What are they on my friends list for then? Don’t you talk to friends? And be honest, cause I will. I’d rather look at what they post sometimes rather than talk to them. Which I’m sure you do to me every once in a while as well. Big whoop. It’s what we get with technology. “I’d rather text than talk.” Void of emotion, you don’t have to get wrapped up in people knowing that you know others business. There’s no other party involved when you’re creeping a page. If it was a phone call, you and the other person would know the shared information. But I guess if the person posts the information on facebook, its intended for it to be creeped upon.

Which was the point I made to myself. I’ve made it ok for people to creep. I’m a creep-enabler. Weird. I find it funny that people I’m friends with on facebook really have no idea what’s going on with my life unless the pictures or my status’ tell the story. Or if they read into what’s posted correctly. But mostly, they have no idea. That’s all I really had. I was just laughing about it to myself… pondering WHY IN THE WORLD I’m on this thing thats considered a “social network” when I don’t socialize with anyone. They need to make a new name for this genre of websites. Creeptastic.

pretty deep

for getting hit in the head as many times as he did… troy aikman.. author of “hummina hummina” hit it right on the head.

(no pun intended)

“You can tell more about a person by what he says about others than you can by what others say about him.”

I am seein this illustrated first hand… it’s making me think twice about how I carry myself. Thanks, Troy. I needed this… you can find God in EVERYTHING.

rambling on

I decided a I needed a rambling blog post. Who knows what will come out here. For all I know, I could erase half of what is written down first and post only what is appropriate. Of which, you in the blogging reader world, would never know of. A sensor on my thoughts.<–really good thing. mostly because it wouldn’t make sense to anyone what goes on in my head – minus the select few that God has allowed to be on that weird mental wavelength.

Who reads these anyways? My mom? Big whoop, no offense, mom. I see you all the time. Which I actually like more than I thought I would. Got the rosters done today.. all posted and all that jazz. SO GREAT! PRaise God it only took 5 hours. I think they turned out good for what is there – for what it is… it’ll be better in the future. Huge step for the time being.

There’s a bag of open plain m&m’s staring at me right now. Think of how weird that would be if all the m&m’s in that bag had eyes and were really looking at me. Or mouths… telling me to not eat them. I should listen to them. Cuz, they b makin me fat. (as I stick my hand in and shovel a few more into the gaping hole we call a mouth) On another note, facebook is really beginning to bore me. I don’t really know why.. probably because people’s status’ really are lame. It’s only fun to look at when they’re funny… or insightful… who cares if you’re walking the dog, going to in-n-out, or at school again. They should make a site where you can “status” the random things that happen to you during the day. if it’s not random, you can’t post it. Awhh yeahhh that would be the bomb to read.

I wonder what the record is for most change found in a year. I mean, who would really keep track of it all… maybe I should start. I find alot of change… but I usually end up spending it. I googled it – nothing came up. But this came up in the image search for “record for most coins found in a year”

What in the world. Is that lady feeding her kid a coin? I bet if ida found that coin before that lady tried to feed  it to her kid, it would be worth alot more than finding it after she fed it to him. and they wonder why their kids are all jacked up – feeding them metal aka things that arent food… but used to BUY food.

I have this new sense of freedom now that those rosters are out of the way.

fish burrito is swimming to my house… fathom that one. in a red truck. from rubios… drooollll…

kitty meow. i dont know what so funny bout that cat.. but its so.. sad lol.  but SO funny. thats the BYAHHH baby from dave chappelles dean whatever his name was. so funny – but the meanie heads took the funniness off the web. SO LAME.

if you did end up reading this whole thing, i’m sorry. Like was told to billy madison, “Mr. Madison, what you just said, is one of the most insanely idiotic things I have ever heard, at no point in your rambling, incoherent response, were you even close to anything that could be considered a rational thought. Everyone in this room is now dumber for having listened to it. I award you no points, and may God have mercy on your soul.”

some recent shots

many hats doesn’t accurately define what life has been as of late. more like i have about 10 pairs of completely different shoes, that all fit differently – but fit. I can walk in them all, some more comfortable than others – but I don’t walk like I’m impaired. Here are some visual aids. enjoy! Baby Cora Jean and the sdcc golf tournament that bought our uniforms! Praise God!

the update 0709

figured it would be easier to just send a link as opposed to an email…

I know it’s time for this update, but how to present it to people other than myself… is a task. I have seen the Lord do SO much in the little amount of time (almost 23 weeks). I could talk about what He’s going to do, what He’s already done, what He’s done in me, what He’s done through me for others…  Instead.. I’m going to tell you what I’ve seen.

I’ve seen what it is to be uprooted from a place/people you’ve come to love and be asked to go to the last place on earth I wanted to be, San Diego. (although, I’m glad He did)  I’ve seen what it is to figuratively put your raft in the shallow water, be swept away into the rapids only to be dropped into the slow moving, nearly stagnant water, then back into the rapids…a continuing cycle. My walk with the Lord really took to the river the day I graduated from IWU. There’s something to be said about having no outward stability; being in a place of decision – to either spaz out and adapt a lifestyle of a compulsive worrier, or find strength in the secret place… of His presence. It took a 2 years to even understand a piece of what that meant. Since then, I’ve seen the hand of God provide in ways no human could ever provide; seen His favor fall in a way no man could ever organize; I’ve seen Him HEAR AND ACT with haste to change the situation. I’ve seen Him use the mess He brought me out of to comfort others; I’ve seen Him blow away the cloud confusion, over and over again. I’ve seen His faithfulness punch out the lies surrounding my situations. By now, you’re probably like.. “ok, that’s great, but what have you been doing?”

I’ve been waiting. Until the last 2 days. Work started July 1 as the new Sports Information Director/Asst Women’s soccer coach at San Diego Christian College. I learned of how much will be going on, and how important God having my time is going to be. I have finally been released to this walk into this ministry He showed me back in February. Just like He said back when I visited, all the signs on the sign post that were pointing in different directions will suddenly all align and show you the way in unison. That time’s come. Things are picking up in a great way. There’s much more to be seen – big steps coming. That’s the extent of my update. Not the usual description of a day/week/months you were probably expecting, but as you’ve seen I don’t fit into molds very well.

So basically once things start truckin’ for real… you’ll hear from me again.. :)

Picture of Your Love

317 returns

It’s been over 6 months since I’ve received a call from an anonymous 317 number. I was sitting in starbucks, doing some work and my phone rang. the 6 month string was broken. I figured it had to be important because I didn’t just give my number out to the world..infact.. like no one. Maybe that’s why I never get any phone calls haha. Anyways, these past weeks have been a roller coaster- mostly me internally battling God’s request to be still and rest. It is my biggest weakness. So, my pathetic effort to be at rest, I was working. But back to the phone call. Upon hitting send, I heard my name exclaimed from the other side of the phone… and I didn’t recognize the voice until she told me. It was a woman from where I worked back in Indianapolis (when I was actually employed). *flash back* She’d been in a really hard place and turned to alcohol, when she came back into our area in cubicle land, about half way through my time there. She has the best heart… so funny.. but still in hard place..

The last time I saw her, I wrote her a little thing and paired it with a CD of worship music. Why? I don’t know.. just felt like it was fitting for the occassion. I was leaving, she was staying.. why not throw some straight God at people before I wasn’t there to do it again. Kind of the final hurah. It had been heavy on me to do something for the specified individuals.. . feb 08. Spirit of God fell in that place, upon her that day… its always great when the mention of what Jesus is to you, it begins a flow of story about what Jesus used to mean to people.. and they don’t even know how they got to where they are now. That’s what happened that day. A salvation and baptism flooded back after near 35 years. The assumption that it was “too late” was destroyed..hope restored. I didn’t hold on to it too long because I was ushered into the next thing fairly quickly. I thought the vividness of that day, I would never forget.. her face/words/the point for change that day.

Until today when it again came flooding back to me in her voice. She began to tell me that she carried the note around to this day, was listening to the CD, and hasn’t had a drink since that Februrary day. PRAISE GOD! She’d found the picture of her baptism when she first came to the Lord, paired it with Romans 8:28 -

And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.

She was sitting in the parking lot of her church, waiting for the retreat seminars to begin. She dove into God. I didn’t recognize her voice because she literally wasn’t the same. In her words, “I’ve found so much peace..” I teared up because the woman I saw before me in Feb 08 was so far from peace. She parted with an “I love you, I just needed to say thank you.”

It’s not often God allows you to see the fruit of your obedience… but when He does, OH MY GOSH – THANK HIM FOR IT.

kim tripped

slumdog mill and Jesus

just finished watching slumdog millionare… and didn’t really know what to expect. the reviews were all over the place from the people i know. “it’s good.” “sad” “inspiring” “i fell asleep” “i didn’t care for it” “the chick was hot”… obviously descriptive, not. so i sat down with an open mind. not just to the movie itself, but to what could possibly be the direction Ed Noble would go on sunday with the kick off of God at the Movies at Journey Community Church.

I’m not the biggest fan of chick flicks, but this was a whole new definition to knight in shining armor. one that i can totally roll with. not because its dramatic or anything gross or morbid, but because you saw his devotion. it wasn’t stereotypical chick flick where the dude is chasing after the girl because his one night stand left him wishing it was lasting, or an arranged marriage that wasn’t to the “knight” or the damsel in distress’ liking… he knew her as a child, he fought for her, he returned for her, he volunteered his life for her, he worked for her, his mind was always on her, and deepest of all he waited for her.

Throughout the movie, he asked about her – even when a slumgirl, (a nobody to everyone else but him) from his youth was the last thing you’d expect to be on his mind when his life was in danger… but yet, she was. she was always on his mind. everything he did had her in mind. how to find her, how to see her, how to show her he was still waiting for her… I don’t know the direct quote, but he says he will wait for her at the train station at 5pm everyday until she comes. as this is coming out of my fingers, all I can see is the love story we have a chance to live with Jesus.

Check out the reversion. if you don’t see it now, try this…

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“but because you saw His undefiled devotion. it wasn’t stereotypical chick flick where the dude is chasing after the girl because his one night stand left him wishing it was lasting, or an arranged marriage that wasn’t to the “knight” or the damsel in distress’ liking… He knew her as a child, He fought for her, He volunteered his life for her, He worked for her, He returned for her, His mind was always on her, and deepest of all He waited for her.

Throughout the movie, He asked about her – even a “nobody” from his youth was the last thing you’d expect to be on His mind when His life was in danger… but yet, she was. she was always on His mind. everything He did had her in mind. how to find her, how to save her, how to show her He was still waiting for her… I don’t know the direct quote, but He says He will wait for her at the train station at 5pm everyday until she comes.

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Maybe that’s a little clearer with the verses linked – the most dominant theme i saw was the devotion in jamal for latika. the same pure devotion Jesus has for you, except i haven’t seen a movie made that depicts that emotional bond without the carnalized human aspect coming into the picture… distorting the incomparable and pure love… (it’s illustrated hugely in song of solomon). though most people read that book as a passionate love story between a man and a woman, some churches even see it as vulgar – it’s a passionate story of God’s love for His bride, the church.  the church isn’t just the corporate body… it’s YOU. He’s passionately in love with YOU.

that passionate love goes another direction..like when latika realizes/responds to jamal’s patient love for her by showing up at the train station, Jesus is ‘chillin at the station’ waiting for you to respond to that invitation to accept His love for you. trippy part is just like jamal, ‘before 5′, He is chasing after you, finding where He can meet you where you are…pursuing you to let you know that He is at the train station waiting for you… just waiting… till the day when you show up.

now thats value! innately we desire to be sought after… we desire to be waited for… because that says “you’re valued” like nothing else in this world…do we not realize that were starring in our very own, personally designed love story, with the Creator of the universe? where we are being sought after and waited for?

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its an abrupt ending because thats how the reality of His love for you is going to hit you. spiritual spontenaity… the proof that there is a living heart inside. //signsoflife//