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January 14, 2008
entry 1.
sing at sunrise. not sure why it feels right as a name for this “thoughts from janelle” journal… but it does. The name stems from something I wish I was able to do. Sing praises to my Dad even if the daily tasks seem to not be praise worthy. I have yet to know what God’s purpose for 2008 is for me. I know there is a lot of change headed my way. Nothing confirmed but RELAX and GO WITH MY FLOW is what it seems to be at this point.
There is the potential for much change. Even in the short time this year has existed the idea of change has been prevalent.
1. Coach Bahr from Olivet, the Graduate Assistant program that I applied for, called and wants to set up a face to face interview.
2. Greg Knotek, my boss at Zent Consulting, was informed Friday that his brain tumor has returned. They gave him a few options (do nothing, chemo, or experiemental drugs)
3. Pastor Tavio’s series hes beginning is about change through the Holy Spirit.. not through the soul (aka, intellect, knowledge) and simply allowing the Holy Spirit to bring out of us what he has placed within us for his purposes.
Number 3 has been a big deal for me. Had no clue that he was going to be starting a series on this area of importance. Lately I have been feeling so inept in the way of spiritual gifts. I keep trying to logically put together my “qualities” to fit the list the church has compiled and I dont seem to fit into any categories. I still have no idea what I am called to do.
There was a concrete word from the Lord that discipleship will be one of the gifts I will be blessed with. Funny he should say that. I have no issues with creating relationships in a Godly manner. In fact, its the way I prefer to have the relationships structured. I feel completely incapeable of instructing from the Word, like so many people I have encountered in Indianapolis. It is an ability I have envied…
But off of that – today, through Tavio’s message.. there really is no need for intellect. It doesnt hurt you – its not wrong.. But the Lord will use the gifts I HAVE, and in time, through prayer, grant me others. It says in 1 Cor 14:1 (1 cor 14 is dedicated to the gift of prophecy – this one freaks alot of ppl out.) “Follow the way of love and eagerly desire spiritual gifts, especially the gift of prophecy.”
Eagerly desire. Desire what? Not just giftings, Me. Desire Me in 2008.
