exposure

can be used in a variety of ways, this word, exposure. Luke 12:2, is one… but not goin there for now. can be linked with cameras, clothing malfunctions, and i’m sure a few others that i just don’t care about listing. the one way that i’m using it today, for the purpose of this post.. is

exposure: a disclosure of something secret. (and maybe a little bit of luke 12:2-3)

i’m looking for a church. more like waiting for the church to come to me. i know what im looking for, and won’t relent until i have it all.. ha. play on a misty edwards song that i’m currently in-love with.

why use the word exposure? there’s a lotta posers. some look alright after a few weeks, but if i don’t have to wait a few weeks to “know”, then i’d really rather not waste the time. granted the Lord’s timing/preparation is in the equation… like with Healing Streams, i just knew. so i guess this post of more of a prayer request that what is done in the dark would come to the light, in haste. discernment be on point | and ministries be transparent to my eye.

i want a church with vision | an ear for the Holy Spirit and what He has to minister to His people | God given VISION | a heart for worship, intercession, the voice of God | a church of DREAMERS.

Lord, hear…

something else – i walked over 6 miles today to get a bagel. mostly because i have no ability to drive. yes, i currently possess all apendages, eyes, ears, and sense of direction. i don’t possess a california license, insurance, or car. ha! minor details. already been referred to as a strong legged animal. thanks, manns. i’ll put that on my resume from now on. lol

where i belong

Your presence is all I am longing for, here in the secret place
Your nearness is all I am waiting for, here in the quiet place
Here in the secret place

My soul waits for You alone
Like the watchmen wait for dawn
Here I’ve finally found a place
Where we’ll meet, Lord, face to face

I’ve finally found where I belong
I’ve finally found where I belong, in Your presence
I’ve finally found where I belong, it’s to be with You, to be with You

I am my Beloved’s and He is mine
So come into Your garden and take delight in me, take delight in me

Delight in me, delight in me
Delight in me, delight in me

Here in Your presence, God, I find my rest
Here in Your presence, God     // where i belong, matt gilman| cory asbury

there’s something to say for landing in a place and just knowing you’re smack-dab in His will. at that point in time, a unremoveable smile paints itself on your face. the flight was good – it goes quick when this older flight attendant guy  talks to you 3 hours out of the 4.5 hour flight… sleep occupies the rest. dinner = grand… but telling what God’s done in the short 2 weeks of notice, is better. ima post a few dbpv pics – (my photoshop finally started working..) since there the last ones ill ever post. :(

proverbs 28:1

bold as lions.

this post is encrypted so if these individuals ever do read this, they will know it is for them. This is to the helper who protects in wisdom, and through the steward of the horses, God is gracious.

//Matthew 20:16 “In the same way, the last will be first, and the first will be last,   because many are called, but few are chosen.”

//Matthew 23:11 “The person who is greatest among you must be your servant.”

//Matthew 20:26 “It is not this way among you, but whoever wishes to become great among you shall be your servant.

There’s a great reward in service. Don’t see it as a lowly position… God views your call to serve through these words above from the Bible. It’s the greatest position to be a servant. The world’s distorted its interpretation… mmm… both of you called to serve. Cushion simply means people take comfort in your presence. And it’s true.

Good things ahead… good things…
and one more thing. He’s the Restorer of families, marriages, relationships in general… and hearts.  Luke 4:18 Ok, thats all :)

putting your lock on the wrong locker

I didn’t do it.. but I got out of the shower at the gym and went to get my jacket and sweatshirt out of the locker to the side of the locker where the bag of shower stuff was.. there was a lock on it. Funny.. I don’t even own a lock. How’d that get there? Checked the lockers beside where I was sure I’d put my clothes (because someones actually moved my clothing before..) Nothing. I’m like DAHHHH. Only think I could gather from the look of the clothes/purse in the locker next to my mysteriously locked locker, was she was older. Black fuzzy leapord print jacket and gloves, and a leather purse with a heart on it.

Went back and forth with what to do with this.. I couldn’t wait an hour for this random lady to come back. I go out to the front desk and try and explain my dilemma… “would the lady with her items in locker 113 please report to the womens locker room.” How ineffective. lol.

She randomly came back just as that message went forth. People in the gym looking all confused to why the dude was annoucing a locker number over the PA. I was laughing. This WOULD happen… she felt so bad. She normally puts her stuff in 111, and when it was taken she didnt know what to do. She put her stuff in 115 and the lock on 113. “I guess this tells me I’m losing it, right?”  We joked about it a little, but seriously, I never remember what number I put stuff in.

there’s no deep impactful message to this.. other than, older people… the young ones forget just as much as you do. so call yourself young and dismiss the charges. its a win win situation.

46220 to 92071

it’s a wrap. the change I referenced in the post below, is that I am moving back to california, specifically, home. good times. moving estimates are a pain in the butt. why can’t everyone just give you a good deal

enjoy : jack ball commercial from awesomeland

that change i mentioned

so maybe i didn’t mention a change… but now i am. there’s a big change on the horizon. and when i mean big i mean like big. it will make a few happy, make a few cry, leave a few stuned, and increase the usage of cell minutes.

Best thing is… God has both my hands like a little kid learning to walk..and He’s a pretty good Daddy.

stay tuned.

sores have got to suck

Some kinda journey this has been. Holidays, family, sickness, kleenex, ice cream, waiting, suphedirine, not being able to walk, being carried, winning soccer games, laughing, snow, rain, computer deciding it doesnt want to cooperate on any level except itunes, restlessness, situations less than ideal…and the list goes on. Be quick to dwell on the negatives? Nah, a guest last night steered me away from that, thankfully. I was re-introduced to Job.

Obedience makes life tough sometimes, sometimes it makes it awesome. But in my friend Job’s case… being a sore filled piece of exposed meat, is less than awesome. Makes my situation(s) synonomous to floating on clouds and eating bon-bons. Then to further end the pity party, the weakest I’ve felt, in ability/physically/emotionally and all that…This guy Job, can barely breathe..yet, still he utters with no anger, “

23 God understands the way to it
and he alone knows where it dwells,

24 for he views the ends of the earth
and sees everything under the heavens.

25 When he established the force of the wind
and measured out the waters,

26 when he made a decree for the rain
and a path for the thunderstorm,

27 then he looked at wisdom and appraised it;
he confirmed it and tested it.

28 And he said to man,
‘The fear of the Lord—that is wisdom,
and to shun evil is understanding.’ “

Job is a covenant man (gotta love those guys.). He knows His covenant God sees where he is at. He understands there is a time where this testing will end. He understands that the imparted wisdom will have been tested, approved and ready to share at the end. But the point that speaks loudest to me is He continues to speak the Word.

the Word will get you through.

So what did I learn through all of  this? double entendres are awesome. Bible and the Word himself. This may reflect what I’m going through, but we’ve all got our own mess, self created or tests… that we can learn from Job through. There’s an end, there’s a Helper, and there’s a goodie bag for you to take with you. Hang in there, the goodie bag is worth it.