the love that proves there is a beating heart inside

Just compiled the logo stuff I’d been given to do since I’ve been here.

It’s becoming real. the exit interview is scheduled, the last box stowed in the truck, everything updated that can be updated… I’ve spent since March 2009 at this place, in this office.  It’s been what I do, definitely not who I am. There are some days where I would have given anything to be rid of the seeming burden, but in taking a step back, this place has given me something I couldn’t have gotten anywhere else. Experience (and a husband!!!).

This job I’m in is supposedly reserved for the experienced. The “right” person for this job has been trained under other SID‘s and has put in hundreds, if not thousands of hours with athletics in some capacity. When I got the call for this job, I’d put in thousands of hours before God (a huge chunk @ starbucks) because nothing I did produced what I thought it should have. This occupation was the last of what I thought I wanted.

That last sentence is what makes what’s coming so exciting. I’m literally at the end of what I wanted. I guess that could be a scary place, but I know now that if He puts you there, He’ll provide.. experienced or not. I’d have to say that He graced me with an uncanny ability in these past two years to juggle and get way more done than humanly possible in a day/hour.. and that is more valuable than any number of years/decades of experience.

The most common question I’ve gotten lately (I would have asked it too, but I’ll point out the irony anyways), “so what are you going to be doing out there?” Truth -> I have no idea. I don’t say that with fear – I just really don’t know. I’m sure the situation will flirt with fear at some point, but for now – I’m excited to tour the southwestern/midwest with my best friend and break the need in me to plan. Weather (and God since He authors the whole weather thing) will dicate our route. Try planning for weather! BAHAHAH! You can hardly do that in San Diego anymore, huh Al Gore?

It’s literally a new chapter. Shedding a job, gaining a husband who is AWESOME, shedding a car, gaining a truck, leaving a state, going to another, losing a California license, gaining an Indiana one, leaving one house, soon to be living with HIM and loving every minute of it. The new chapter is a deeper refinement of what we were put here to do – and how we do it together. Let it be according to Your word.

May He grant you according to your heart’s desire,
         And fulfill all your purpose.

ps. 20:4