today was a landmark day in indianapolis, Indiana. under mayor ballard, public servicemen and women of all areas joined the church body, uniting in prayer outside of wishard hospital in indianapolis. we united under a cry for healing both for the land and a critically wounded officer, officer fishburn. it was incredible. multiple denominational clergymen, public sevicemen, and the community of indianapolis gathered, believing that prayer could change our city. prayer after prayer rang out over the entire city, from the grassy area outside the hospital where the officer is fighting for his life. our chief of police added to the vertical cry for healing, restoration and unity in our city. where else have you known a mayor to be an advocate for the unification of church and state? i know i haven’t seen it before.

i love this place.

if i could describe the events of this past season in words of comparison - i would choose the words .spent. and .revived.

.spent. ive been exhausted in all possible ways. in this exhaustion, God has asked much of me. because of the lack of strength, but the desire to be obedient, God showed up in ways that only He could. i see it as supernaturally. no man in his power could have done what God has done. they are long, encouraging stories (even to me),  of His faithfulness and the power of prayer.

.revived. ive been carried into a season of things i have never seen before. people, places, and intentionality with people on many levels. who i am is in a constant growing state, not changing, growing. physically and spiritually. no, im not getting taller, fatter, or anything in those aspects… the way i feel, look, dress, is branching into new areas as i am shaped by the Master.

youre prolly reading this going .why you so vague?. im so vague because i wanted to keep this entry as short as i did. if i went into anything wed be here for days reading. i dont want that. plus. many prolly would have a hard time believing what i said. if you really want to know.. ask God how you can pray for me. youll get what you need information wise.

.passion. seeing people come to truth, darkness being shed in exchange for light, kids, teens, photography. a new appreciation for laughter. new appreciation for tears. intentional love.

so much change… so much more coming.

This entry will be straight up (abundant in tactful honesty). justa lil heads up.

life has been a season of transition lately. and by lately, i mean the last…. 8 weeks? heck - since Jan 1, when God laid the word “Relentless” as the word of 2008. No, I’ve never had a word for the year… but I’d recommend asking God for a word to define 2009 for your life. the number 8 signifies new beginnings - and its exactly what 2008 would be classified as if analyzed day by day. Many things aren’t visible from the surface yet, but I know they’ve been remolded/renovated/rejuvinated. a good chunk of that God’s done through what I’ve seen on the streets.

Alot of the people from home reading this are probably like.. “the streets?! girl?! what are you doing out on the streets?! Don’t you realize thats dangerous?!”

Well.. yes. But do you realize that people on the streets are hurting just as bad, if not worse, than the people you allow yourself to be around from day to day? Money, upbringing, demographics, musical preference, stereotypes, cultural norms, physical apperance … shouldn’t be the indicator of who its ok to talk to, show love to...

its incredible what walls can be shattered by a simple smile of genuine joy.

In Matthew 25, Jesus says ‘what you have done for the least of these, you have done for me.” In this stage of my life, this refers to the streets. Black, white, hispanic, asian, “other” - True compassion doesn’t see color, language, or status. It sees the heart, the pain, the helplessness and chooses to offer restoration through Christ.

In light of that - heres the visual update - where broken people who have been made whole in His eyes meet the currently broken to show them the Hope of wholeness in Christ.

just havent been in writing moods lately. well, i retract that. writing moods for the masses. God’s been doin work lately. so much to the point where i dont even know what to say about it..other than.. oh my.

He’s finally allowed friendships to form here. good friendships. with purpose for our lives as well as others, right now mainly teens. 2 years ago i was not super inclined to high schoolers. i “dealt” with them. well then God dealt with me. broke me. thats when the marion girls, particularly jackie roorbach.. man i miss her.

i was PLACED in indianapolis with purpose. its slowly being revealed, piece by piece.  i know more than i could ever tell, but once it happens, people will have a tangible thing to see how Gods promises prevail.

Unashamed Teen Ministry. If youre a person of prayer, which I know not everyone who reads this is… lift these teens up. Healing Streams Word and Worship Center is located in what most white people would call the ghetto. Nah. Its up n coming. The work the Holy Spirit is doing in those places that people write off before entering…. watch out. ha! These teens at the Streams get it. They understand. most think of teens as being troubled, lost, hopeless…  break that stronghold in the name of Jesus… They are pillars of revival in this nation.
The things we have seen (we being the leadership for the TM)… are fire.. makings of an army for the Lord.

wow. gettin all ..*wooo* just thinkin about what it will look like.

anyways. thats my update. “why isnt it about whats going on in your life?” because thats not what im here for. Gods got me taken care of. Just know that its a safer location to be in the hands of your Dad then to have the things that make you look stable to the world. (money, house.. etc).

Got enough to give and enough to live. but believing for abundance period. its coming

peace

The Mercy Seat

For those of you who actually read this, I apologize for the lack of update. Life has been moving at the speed of God with no real down time. Well… I’ll give a readers digest of the update…

I ended my job at NGS, the Medicare contractor at the end of March. It was just time to move on. I miss the people, but I know that God has more for me than government. I went immediately to Zent Consulting, a door which closed quickly. A week before ending NGS, I was told that the longevity of Zent wasn’t what it was pre-cancer for Greg, the president. At least from my area. It’s still productive - just was time for me to move. Wasn’t expecting that. I moved into Broadripple, an arty district of central Indianapolis. About 15 mins away from downtown and/or everywhere in Indy. It’s great. Diverse buncha nice people live here. And theres a starbucks right down the street. I’ll take pics soon…

I had an interview on monday the 7th - i think that was the day… at Main1Media. It went GREAT… but when the offer came - God said, no.. i have something better… Don’t ask me to explain why, because I cant. There’s no tangible reasoning to why the answer was no. And that is ok with me. His word is his word.

I made that move on the 13th. I was “unemployed” but God gave me work - at Zent.. which was such a blessing. Friday, the 17th was my first day of being “unemployed” but AGAIN he provided work for me to do from Mason. It’s turning out just like He planned.. nothing short of excellent. I have been sending out resumes, etc.. but nothings coming back - but I know that God is ALWAYS faithful, and ALWAYS my provider. mmm makes me smile just thinking about it.

I stumbled upon this analogy (stumbled.. ha God placed it in my lap) about life being safer inside the boat as opposed to walking on water. Well, the past weeks have shown me that TRULY life is safer and more exciting outside the boat - on the water- closest to Jesus.

If you feel like youre at a stand still in life.. same thing day after day after day… ask God to bring you outside the boat- He wont do it until youre ready, but the willingness is what hes looking for. If you have a willingness to be willing… Oh baby, He’ll run with it.

Take joy into today - He gave it to you with purpose.

jd

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broke the lease. looking for more… i know theres more, God. Show me where it is.

even if i explained it - it would evoke a different response from each person that read the journey I have been on since the 14th of January. those who i thought would understand..didn’t. the ones who i thought wouldn’t care have agreed that God’s will is best, even if they purposefully choose to deny God’s character and design for our lives.

i will be moving. where? not  sure - I have an area in mind. To put it simply, the Lord gave me a place where he is waiting to grow me at. That place happens to be 30-40 mins west. Bottom line.. He will provide.

he provided the financial means to make it happen.  |  he provided a lesson along the way that spending money for something isn’t necessarily a bad thing… im my fathers daughter..  |   he provided support  |   he provided love..   |  and most of all, through all the stress i put on myself by looking to day 3 on day 1… missing out on all day 1 has to offer… hes again, pointed out broken a part that needs to be repaired.

i know he is sovereign, jehovah jirah, loving, patient, my overseer, constant companion, faithful, the Almighty, my healer, my shelter, my shield… ps 91 says he commands his angels to guard me in all my ways, he is my rescuer, my satisfaction… my Lord.

Then why is there even room for the evil one to infiltrate? blah. he sucks. just plain sucks. He can suck all he wants.. hes conquered- I belong to Someone else.. he can take a hike.

Today in seeking his face for peace.. I stumbled upon this verse. It was from one of Pastor Tony Folgio’s “read the bible in a year” devotionals that i get in the junker email. i dont even remember what the title of the devo was.. but this passage literally captivated me. captivation to the point of God literally speaking to me..inwardly. words jumping off the page type (or off the screen: )  )

1Arise, shine, for your light has come,
and the glory of the LORD rises upon you.

 2 See, darkness covers the earth
and thick darkness is over the peoples,
but the LORD rises upon you
and his glory appears over you.

 3 Nations will come to your light,
and kings to the brightness of your dawn.

 4 “Lift up your eyes and look about you:
All assemble and come to you;
your sons come from afar,
and your daughters are carried on the arm.

 5 Then you will look and be radiant,
your heart will throb and swell with joy;
the wealth on the seas will be brought to you,
to you the riches of the nations will come.

 Isaiah 60:1-5

I quickly wrote this verse down. funny. I’ve been prayin for daylight, wealth..(not necessarily financial), and for people to be drawn to his light..  He told me this once before that people would be drawn to me. when he’d pointed out discipleship as an avenue of service. I am excited to see what comes.

exhaustion. weighed on by so many things that are out of my control. have i made a serious attempt at releasing them to the Lord? yes. it just seems to make them heavier. i thought the storm was over with the news on olivet. sadly i was wrong.

what am i saying, “sadly” for?

isnt the Lords greatest work in us when it seems like everything is at a stand still? like pastor hill said in church on sunday.. God’s looking at his watch and goin…”its not time yet.. if you go now, my power cant be displayed.”

i am waiting for him to bring me to a place where what i just said is always my first answer. theres a lot on my heart that is heavy. heavy for one reason- i know their resolution is possible if i believe God is capable of moving things that seem concrete. leases, large monetary numbers… all conquered..

just not yet in the real world.

the times coming. just believe…

Because

Emmanuel

Lives

Expect

Victory

Everytime